touché facebook, touché

lately i have been wanting to clean up everything. and i'm not just talking my extremely messy house. i'm talking life, specifically my social media outlets. i've been working to clean up my blog design. something cleaner, more modern, less cluttered. and then suddenly that spilled over to twitter (oh, how i loathe thee, twitter.) and facebook.

you see, it's not that i dislike facebook, unlike it's condensed friend, twitter. i actually really like the fb. but, lately i've been reading statuses and seeing pics and comments that i just have no interest in. i'm talking people who put up all life's drama so everyone can feel sorry for them. or the person who insists on inviting you to join them in every group, game and internet debauchery known to man. or how about the person putting all their political or religious beliefs on you when all you wanted to do was look at the picture of your besties gosh darn cutie pup?

well, all that to say that i started to clean up my facebook. delete this person, block that one, etc. one "friend" in particular was someone who literally put up ten to twenty statuses a day about their entire life's ups and downs with no qualms about who would see it, care about it, judge them for it or use it against them.

i'd been thinking about doing it for so long. and then, i. finally. did. it.

and now? i feel like this...

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defrienders remorse. 

what the hell will i do with my time and what will i talk to jennifer about 500 times a day?

serious defrienders remorse. the only thing worse? asking to be this persons friend again and therefore openly admitting online that i unfriended you just to want you back again. it's like a bad relationship that you just can't shake.

and that, my friends, is today's social media lesson.
think before you defriend.

breaking up is hard to do

yes, yes, y'all are getting two posts today.

try not to squeal like little piggies with excitement.

this is going to be a little bit of a rant. mostly because i'm super stressed. i mean, it's self induced and a bit ridiculous. so of course, writing it all down will help me to see that, right?

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serious statement right there. 

like, "we shoulda broke up two months ago. terrible, abusive relationship" break up. thanks stress. 

sources of stress: 

(in no particular order) 

 wedding planning 

AOII 

work 

T finding a new job 

are we going or staying 

weight watchers 

friends/family 

life 

ahhhhh, was that enough information? 

probably not. i've been told i'm a vague person when it comes to my social media outlets. i know, i know. i put something out there but don't give you all of it and then you secretly hate me because you want to know. 

truth is, most of the time i want to put it all out there. i want to jot it down for all to see, so i'm not alone in my worry. really, so i'm not alone in my fear. unfortunately i can't put everything out there for obvious issues like security or hurting others feelings, etc. 

but here's what i can put out there... 

planning a wedding is hard stuff people. i wish someone had told me that a very long time ago. if i have a daughter, it's the first thing i'm telling her out of the womb. you want things to be perfect. you want to save money but you know things are expensive. you want to make everyone happy. people tell you it's your day but when you say that you're a bridezilla. (btw, bridezilla is an official word since spell check did not underline it. you learn something new every day.) you can't have everything you want. learn that early on in life and it'll help a little when you're planning a wedding. your fiance will not care about anything. or is that just mine? god love him, he's so sweet and tries to help but i can tell he's just trying to pick the one i like the best anyway. i guess all you can do is hope for the best. because really, as long as we're married at the end of the day, that's all that matters. 

i love being an advisor but sometimes, i think my heart and my head are against each other. i haven't been out of the sorority that long (4 years almost) but things are so different. i want to be best friends with some and loathe others but that's just not your place as an advisor. i want to point them in the right direction without smacking them in the face and telling them they're making all the wrong decisions. my heart is so full of love and pride for kappa omega that it's sometimes hard to tell whether i'm helping or hurting. it's hard to understand unless you've been there through the rough times and seen how amazing they are now. because of me. because of the pledge classes before them. we've all put in so much hard work to see them succeed and they're doing a great job, i just don't want them to get burnt out or make a rash decision. i want to tell them that the four years they have there are some of the best years they'll have. it's where you'll make your forever friends. it's how i met my future husband. where my brother worked for two years and i got to see so much of because of that. it's where i watched all ten seasons of friends 3 or 4 times. it's where i drank too much. partied too hard. and made all kinds of bad decisions. but it's where i learned the most about people, the most about myself and the most about life. i wouldn't be who i am today without it. i guess it's hard to understand until you're away from it all. you don't know what you had till it's gone. 

i love my job. some days are harder than others but i love it. and now i might have to leave it? say what.  

T was laid off in january and is now looking for work in louisville. it's hard to be excited because i love my job and advising at the sorority here in lexington. BUT, we've been wanting a change for so long now and it seems like it's finally happening. funny how life does that to ya. 

are we going to lousiville? are we staying in lexington? 

 can we say plateau? i'll leave it at that for right now. 

i always worry about my friends and family. always. can't help it. if i love you, i worry about you. that should make motherhood the scariest most awesome part of my life! 

see how life can be super awesome and super crazy? super stressful and super fun? super rewarding and super up in the air? 

i'm ready for the dust to settle and to see where we land but i think this battle is just getting started.

a post about whining?

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i'm really trying very hard this year to do less whining. the thing is, it's in my nature. doesn't that sound awesome?

"hi, i'm ashley. nice to meet you. oh, and by the way i'm a whiner so get yourself prepared". 

seriously, sometimes i even wear myself out whining. but there's always one person who listens and never says "shut the hell up!" "stop". just yesterday (on our 20th call of the day. no, really.) i was going on and on about how frustrated i am with jobs and the nursing home board and car problems and our house and blah, blah, blah. 

side note: i'm starting to think whining is contagious and i'm getting it from the 4 year old i spend 10 hours a day with. at least i feel a little bit better now.

anyway, it seems you can start to feel very overwhelmed with your life and everything in it when you complain about it all. but that's why bestie is the best. because she doesn't care how much i complain and whine as long as i'm doing it with her. or she's doing it with me because the fact is say she has plenty to whine about since she's the one 5 months pregnant and all. if i were any form of pregnant it'd be all i'd complain about. (good luck, one day, T!). but no. even when we had this conversation...

• ME: Are you sure you want to have a baby. I mean, they're a lot to handle. Not to mention that whole giving birth thing.
• BFF: Yes, I'm fairly sure.
• ME: Ok, I wasn't going to tell you this but I'm 90% sure that once you give birth your vagina will be 5 feet long and you'll have to roll it up just to put your pants on. What do you think about that?
• BFF: I think you're ridiculous.
• ME: Well that's a given.

no complaints whatsoever. not even about her crazy best friend that is absolutely off her rocker because of all the complaining she does. 

wow, i don't even know where this is going any more. whining to 5 foot vaginas? i can only blame it on my lack of brain power or tact?

the sanctity of marriage

did you hear?

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she filed for divorce today.

it's only been 72 days. less than 3 months, people. are you kidding me? and it's estimated that their wedding cost 10 million dollars. that's a little less than $140,000 per day. wow, not worth it, amiright?

what has happened to the sanctity of marriage in this country?

i think so many people today get married with the thought, "if it doesn't work out we'll just get a divorce." so they go into marriage before the really should, not sure and not ready.

T and i have been together a long time. i'm talking almost 7 years. we're getting married in less than 11 months. there is no option for divorce. we're in it for better and for worse. when you make a decision to get married you make a decision to spend the rest of your life with that person. not a few months, or years.

now, i understand things happen. people change. and life happens. and if you try your hardest to make it work and things still fall apart then people go their separate ways. i get that. affairs, death, hard times, financial issues, illegal activity. it all happens, all the time. i wish it didn't but you can't control everything in life.

but for a celebrity that's all over t.v., radio, the internet, etc. to get married in such a lavish way and get divorced 72 days later? it's disgusting. what an example for all the young girls/women watching her. i just can't wait to have kids so they can see all this crap, yeah right!

i hope people remember that marriage isn't always easy. it takes work, hard work some days but it's wonderful and worth working for everyday with your best friend beside you. that's what we're going into this marriage thinking, anyway.

i like the way Matthew said it...

"Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,' and said, 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh' ? So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Matthew 19:4-6

not here

do you ever just feel not here? not in a physical sense but more mentally.

lately i'm just not feeling here.

i can't come up with anything creative.

i can't come up with blog topics.

i can't sew anything.

i can't craft anything.

i can't cook anything new.

i can't even clean the house or do laundry. seriously, travis is did it all!

it's as if i'm just not here.

does this ever happen to anyone?

i'd like to think that maybe i'm just burnt out but that's impossible because i haven't really done a lot. i really hope it doesn't mean i'm getting sick. i'd hate that. plus i don't really feel bad. just blah.

i'm hoping this weekend will change all that. i have two whole nights of alone time to craft, sew, write, clean, shop, etc. i'm praying that my creativity will overflow and i'll be a mad woman getting stuff done!

sorry for the uncreative blog post today. hopefully things will start to go back to normal. until then, feel free to stop reading!

haha, no don't do that!

different paths

i was going to blog about my craft to do list but something told me i needed to get something off my chest instead.

you see, i've been thinking a lot about what if's. what if this happened. what if that happened.

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i know it's silly to think about stuff like that. but it happens. and sometimes the best way to get over it, is to just get it all out there.

so here's my what if issue at the moment.

do you ever wonder why certain people come in to your life and then are gone just as quickly?

what if we had stayed in touch after high school. after college? what if we hadn't said such hurtful words to each other? what if i had apologized sooner? what if you had understood where i was coming from? what if we had been less selfish? what if boys hadn't gotten in the way? what if we had celebrated each other's differences instead of disrespecting them? what if we had tried harder? what if we had told the truth? what if we could go back and change things?

i know asking these questions is pointless. you can't change the past. and most of me is very ok with that. i wouldn't be who i am and where i am today if things had gone differently. i'm so very appreciative of what i have in life and who i'm spending it with.

and some things happen that you just cannot control. death. divorce. illness. and those things change your life as well and make you wonder a whole different list of what ifs.

i just can't help but wonder sometimes what if. (i think that might be a woman thing!)

would we still be best friends, the four of us? would we live closer together? would we have attended each other's weddings? would our kids be best friends? would we have stayed in touch? would we know more about each other now than then? would we talk every day, tell each other everything? would you attend more family functions? would i babysit your kids? would we sit and chat about blogs? would we shop together? would we vacation together? would we go to our high school or college reunion together?

it's weird, at the moment in time when things are changing, you don't really see or think about the what ifs that might creep up later in life. and i consider myself lucky because i don't think much about them now a days. but every once in a while i just have to wonder. i let myself for a day or less (never more!). and then as quickly as the what ifs come, they leave. and i thank God for everything and everyone i have.

i'm so lucky and blessed every day that it's silly to wonder what if. because what's now is perfect!

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confession

i know, i'm all about confessing all my dirty little secrets lately. i don't know what's come over me!

do you ever feel like all you want is more, more, more?

i get in these moods where i just want more than i have. and it's usually over stuff but sometimes it's deeper than that.

today i took 30 seconds to think what i wanted and here's what i came up with.

a new cookbook

iPad

new phone

my kitchen cart

unlimited budget for sewing

more time in the day

gym membership

to get married

a house

go on vacation

done with school

date night

a decent breakfast

how to use twitter

(seriously, 30 seconds.)

i think all the time. sometimes i wish i could just shut my brain off and not think, even if only for an hour a day.

it's so easy to get caught up in all the things you don't have or seeing the people around you get things. sometimes i want something simply because someone else has it and when i step back and really think, i realize i don't want that at all.

today i'm really going to try to stop thinking about what i want and be super thankful for what i have! because, let's get real for a minute, i have a lot to be thankful for and i wouldn't change that for the world!

what do you want right now?

facebook, shmacebook

ok, let me just go ahead and give it to you straight...i'm decluttering (is that even a word?) my facebook.

it's time. and i'll tell you why.

1. i'm so tired of looking at someone on my news feed and thinking, "do i know you?", "how did we become friends?", and my personal fav, "do i care what you have to say?".

2. i know all this stuff about people i went to high school and college with, have worked with, ever hung out with, might hangout with, friends of friends, and family. there are some things we just don't need to know.

3. people are nosy. they want to know everything and i just don't. period.

4. i'm so tired of hearing how great your life is. (i realize how that just sounded, but hear me out!) it's great that so many people i know are doing great, i am too, but do we need to parade it around the internet for all to hear/see? what about those who are going through a rough time? i mean, it's great that you just got an iPad or you're taking a european vacation or just got an amazing raise but we don't need to know every good thing that happens to you every day of your life. it's kinda insulting and makes you look like you're all about the stuff in your life.

5. this goes along with number 4...let's not put ALL the bad stuff either. i'm so sorry that so and so died and that you lost your job and you're just having a bad day. really i am and i would love to be there for you, just not over facebook. maybe it's just me, but i don't like having my dirty laundry out for all to see. i want my closest fam and friends to be there for me on a personal level, you know?

6. i hate when you put political crap all over my news feed. enough already.

7. i hate getting a million notifications for your games and polls. serioulsy, how do you have time to be on facebook that much?

8. photos of your wedding? cool. photos of your wedding night? not cool. photos of your kids? cool. photos of your labor? not cool. photos of you looking super cute in your new outfit, new car, with your new man? cool. photos of you flexing in the mirror or in your bikini? not cool.

9. random people asking me to be friends with them because we have the same last name, or first name, or because we live in the same city, or because we look alike, or because i'm human. it's creepy if we don't know each other on some level.

10. facebook changes everyday and i'm just tired of trying to keep up. do you feel me there?

ok, so really i'm just hating on facebook today but i really do think most of those things. call me judgmental or call me mean. it's ok. it's just how i feel.

and don't think i'm not calling myself out here. i'm totally one of those people that could spend all day on fb stalking people and hating on what i find out! i mean who doesn't love a little juice to get them through the day?

also, if you're family or my real friend (not just a fb friend) then just assume this doesn't apply to you. which basically means if you're reading this it probably doesn't :)

except, i want to see no ones labor pictures. seriously. i don't care how close we are!

thanks in advance.

what the hell...

yesterday i saw a young couple with a baby (like itty bitty baby) in their car. they were both smoking...with the windows up.

trav and i have really gotten into watching the biggest loser. we watch it on hulu (since we don't have cable, what?) and i've really gotten into it. BUT, why do i cry every episode? it's getting a little embarrassing, even if it's just us and the dog watching.

i gained two pounds last week. (oh wait, i totally know why that happened but still...)

we spent $200 on groceries. they're almost gone. boys eat a lot.

i got thrown up on. like projectile vomit. seriously. all over. bologna chunks in my hair. thanks lilly!

my bedroom closet smells like smoke. it's as if my next door neighbor is literally blowing all their smoke on that wall that we share.

i hate not having an ice maker. who wants to make their own ice?

why does 86 degrees suddenly feel like 100?

i need a vacation.

my tongue hurts

WARNING!

this is going to be a rant...just thought i'd warn you up front that i'm super whinny this morning. sorry.

1. my tongue hurts. no for real, it does. this might take some explaining. you see, i have a geographic tongue (thanks, dad.). which, in short, means that my taste buds become discolored and i sometimes have cracks in my tongue. most times it doesn't really effect me at all butsometimes, it does. and today is one of those times. and it's irritating. grrrr.

2. i'm hating our apartment complex. i had to put dallas in doggy daycare today because they are fixing our wall from water damage. the same problem that's been happening off and on for the last year and they are just now fixing it. go figure when we'll only be there for another month and a half. ugh. dallas loves doggy daycare but i hate putting him in the car (bad mood instigator, right there) and i hate paying! at least he'll be knocked out tonight at home :)

this is doggy daycare at pet suites of america, nice place, uh!? dallas is spoiled, i know. there's a pool, too.

3. it's raining. i'm so tired of the cold and the rain. it's depressing.

4. i need things to turn around for the better. there's a lot of my life up in the air right now. i'll blog all about it when it's more definite. but it bugs me that i can't right now and that i have no idea about some things.

5. i already broke my promise for lent. yesterday, i forgot it was wednesday and olivia and i always eat at sonic on wednesdays after dance class. and i didn't have my lunch and it was the first day of lent. ugh, do you hate me, God? oh, i know you don't but i promise for reals this time, i won't do it again!

and i wouldn't want to end on a sour puss note so...

one thing i'm super excited about...

i found out yesterday that the hunger games trilogy is going to be made into movies!!!! omg! i can't even wait.

Time for Change?

what?

i am so sick of seeing or hearing barack obama.

he decided to run for president of the united states. well, good for him. he promised change. well, good for him. he ran a good campaign and won the hearts of many americans. well, good for him. in november of 2008 we elected him president of the united states. well, good for him. and on january 20, 2009 he was sworn in as our 44th president. well, oh crap.

i'm a firm believer that everyone should be given the benefit of the doubt until proven differently. just like you're innocent until proven guilty. i never dislike someone until they do something directly to me, that cause me to do so.

so, when he was elected i decided to be nice. "i didn't vote for him but i'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt", that was my motto. well not anymore.

i'm not an influential person. i don't personally know anyone in the government and i'm pretty sure none of my words here will change a thing but i am an american citizen and i have a god give, oh wait...can't really say that. i have a first amendment right to say what's on my mind.

well, here's what's on my mind. barack obama, you are just a man. american people who voted for him, you are foolish for thinking he wasn't. why have we been putting him up on this pedestal like he is god and allowing him to trick you.

recently he has said and done some things that i'm just not ok with.

number one, what do you think you're doing with iran? the american people voted for you because you said you would end the war. we're not so naive that we thought you'd just pull all the troops out but we took your word to mean that you'd get them out as soon and safely as possible. but hold the phone, we might be going to war against iran? i don't think we voted for that. nope, we didn't. the way to win our hearts is not to pull us out of one war and drag us into another. and don't you think there might be more pressing issues at hand, right here at home? just saying.

{"Iran is on notice that when we meet with them on Oct. 1 they are going to have to come clean and they are going to have to make a choice" between international isolation and giving up any aspirations to becoming a nuclear power, he said. If they refuse to give ground, they will stay on "a path that is going to lead to confrontation."}

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090925/ap_on_go_pr_wh/g20_summit_obama_iran

are you kidding me? "on notice"? "a path that is going to lead to confrontation?" says who? you? i definitely didn't vote for this...did anyone? just let me know what you decide barack, so i can move to canada, k? thanks.

number two, did anyone catch what he said about our schools? wow! more school, less vacation. let's think about this for a moment. i understand that our schools are not as great as say, china or japan. but if we wanted to live there we'd move, right. let's take in to account that some schools here in the states that have done this have seen some positive results, but couldn't we also see those results with better teachers, more funding for certain programs, fewer kids in the classroom due to illegal immigrants and the list could go on and on. aren't there 100 things we could do differently before we take away time from our children? i don't have any kids of my own but i know people who do. i don't think they'd appreciate not seeing their children until 7pm on the weeknights or not at all saturday because they're at school for the sixth day. don't we have enough problems with kids spending time with their families, considering the amount of t.v. and video games out there. now mom and dad have to compete with school too. how about the extra curricular activities? how can you have football practice, choir, church, volunteering, and all the other various clubs and activities that allow kids to express themselves based on their talents and what they like to do? not to mention, every kid needs a break from school so they don't get burnt out. just ask trav, he was in school for about three years straight and it just about wrecked him. so the deciding factor here seems to be do what's best for kids or do what looks best for the united states to the other countries out there. obama mentioned that his girls don't want to be in school longer but are they ever there? i'm sure they are but they're also traveling a lot. are they required to go to school longer everyday and during the summer months as well, even though they're dad is the president? and maybe our education system would be better and our children would learn more if our president didn't feel the need to interrupt classroom time to "talk" with our children. i'm just saying.

{http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/33044676/ns/us_news-education//}

number three, health care. now i'll be honest. i don't really understand a lot about what's being said. but that's kind of saying a lot, isn't it. i hear the news and i read the stories but i still can't come to a complete understanding. is that because it's a little far fetched and ridiculous? maybe. are there good parts and bad parts? maybe. but if the president can't lay it out in terms we can all understand, who can? who will? the link posted below is straight to obama's health care reform page. i can't understand most of it. i'm just saying.

{http://www.barackobama.com/pdf/issues/HealthCareFullPlan.pdf}

there are so many other issues going on in this country:

immigration

the economy

energy/global warming

international relations

crime

church

abortion

and so many, many more.

the only thing i can think is that obama is trying to make this country a socialist one. i so did not vote for that. did you?

i keep asking myself why people would want that and i believe it is because this "gift" of socialism was wrapped in gold foil to make it look like something better. he has a way with words. people allow themselves to get drunk on his words and the soothing undertones of his voice. oh sure, he can light a fire in any one's heart but do you really know what he's saying? are you really listening? i wasn't. but i am now.

i don't want to be a socialist country. i don't care if it's working in other parts of this world. i believe in this. the united states of america was founded by god fearing mean, who came to america to seek refuge from a government that was persecuting them because of their religion and their will to be free minded people. we started on christianity and small government. not god-free and government-full.

if i wanted to be a socialist, i'd move to china or vietnam, or cuba. no wait north korea. yeah, north korea for sure. i'm just saying.

I hate complaining but...

I know I shouldn't complain but I just have to get this off my chest.

He loves Grandpa Kev's boots!

Neighborhood watchdog.

Dal with mommy on grad day.

Taking a nap in my cold, cold room!

At dog beach in Michigan...just a baby!

I know not everyone is a dog lover. Most people might consider themselves dog people but it's totally different than a dog lover. You see a dog lover spoils their dog rotten. They let it lay in their lap, sleep in their bed, lie on the couch, eat people food, share a ice cream cone, give kisses all over their face, and pretty much anything most people would let their kids do.

Now I don't have children (thank goodness!) but I do have Dallas. He is my child, my little baby, my nugget, my punkin pie, etc. I love him more than anything because he's all mine and he depends on me. Without me he'd have no home, no food, no toys. I picked him out myself and the day he came home I felt like my life had changed forever. There are so many days when I come home to an empty house and if it weren't for Dal I'd be lonely. I talk to him like he understands and ask him about his day. To sum up how much I love my dog let me just say...if I had to choose between buying dog food or food for me, I'd choose the dog food every time.

So, I've chosen to be a dog lover and to have a big dog and to bring him along most places but when someone makes me choose between my dog or a trip or getting to spend time with certain people, I'm going to choose Dallas. He's my child. Some may not understand but think about how much you love your children and that's what it's like for me and Dallas.

Merry Christmas!

Halloween as Dallas Cowboy players.

Halloween take two: Prince Charming!

Sleeping baby!

First day together!

Sorry about all that, I've just been feeling bitter about that. Now that that's off my chest I will quit complaining!

I'm still waiting to hear about the job and have to work tomorrow and have a busy weekend planned so, I shall have more interesting blogs to come!

Some Things I'm Peeved About

So I'm watching Jon and Kate Plus 8 right now and I'm just so darned ticked. Why are they explaining their separation on national television? I don't care how much money you make, leave the show and take care of business behind closed doors. This will forever change the lives of their children. Coming from a divorced family, you can never fully understand what happened and you never should. Because they've been on t.v. for so long their kids will see the downfall of their marriage one day and start asking questions. I just feel so sorry for the kids. I think if they looked back, they would have done things differently. I know not all marriages can work and some fall apart for the better but when you have eight kids and a t.v. show, it's hard to believe that they are really trying to solve things. I'm going to keep them in my thoughts and prayers because having divorced parents is hard, I can't imagine being on t.v. while going through that at such a young age, or really any age.

Another thing, Travis received an acceptance letter to UK's grad program today and when he went to campus to sign up for classes was told it was a mistake...WHAT? How do you accidentally tell someone they're in and then say oh, just kidding! But being the amazing, resilient man he is he turned this unfortunate event into a blessing. He will be starting MBA classes at Sullivan on Monday!!! YAY! He'll actually get done a little quicker and have more one on one attention because of the smaller class size. I'm so proud of him. I told him that if UK didn't work it's because the Lord has better plans for him and today the Lord provided a better solution, AMEN! I'm so lucky.

I think I'm done complaining...still patiently waiting to hear about the job but as soon as I do, I'll let you know.

Angels and Demons

So a couple of topics to talk about surrounding angels and demons...

1. I saw the movie last night. I'm disappointed. It was soooooo different from the book that it distracted me to watch it. I was sitting there thinking, "How could they change things so much and still make it a good story?" Well somehow they managed to make a good story out of it but it was just different and therefore I didn't like it better like the Da Vinci Code, that's for sure! I don't believe either of these books could actually be true but it makes for a good thrilling mystery movie and that's why I like them but you'd think they might make it a little more realistic.

2. I babysat today. It was weird because usually the baby is so good and the two year old, Ian is so not good. But today it must have been opposite day because the baby was feeling HORRIBLE. He's five months old but I think he's already teething. And so because of that I had to listen to him scream bloody murder for two hours. You should have seen/heard me. I was making faces I didn't know I could and saying cutesy things and going into higher octaves than humanly possible just to try to get this kid to smile, laugh or at the very least just shut the heck up. None the less Ian was pretty good today which made up for that, well not really but it did help. The one thing I can't get the boy to do is to leave all things that have to do with bathrooms or going potty alone. For instance today he pulled out all the wipes in his box and was playing with them in his room. What? Since when did wipes become toys? At least he has a great imagination? Then I go to use the bathroom and he has taken a whole role of toilet paper and unrolled it into the toilet...that's right it was all just sitting in the toilet, a wet sloppy mess. You would think being the great, awesome, amazing babysitter I am that I would have cleaned it. Well I did not. I just put the lid down and proceeded to use the master bath the rest of the day.

But as always tomorrow is another day.

3. I have my own little angel/demon at home and thought I'd share some photos!

Demon

Angel

Dallas starts training classes soon but I can tell he's growing up some. He's starting to listen better and he sleeps more than he used to. He's my little baby and love of my life...sorry Trav!